I really do disgust myself at times

my mind is racked with pornographic thoughts constantly and I think this is one of the signs of addiction. When attempting to set myself up for sexual release, verbally, physically, over text, however really my heart starts pounding hard enough to be seen through a shirt or felt through my ribs, hard enough to resonate throughout a mattress if im laying down. A swelling tension rises and builds in my stomach. A familiar but much lighter feeling arises in my loins as well. It keeps me from being a good person even when I want to be, it’s hard to ignore such a stressed physical response.

I really do disgust myself at times

my mind is racked with pornographic thoughts constantly and I think this is one of the signs of addiction. When attempting to set myself up for sexual release, verbally, physically, over text, however really my heart starts pounding hard enough to be seen through a shirt or felt through my ribs, hard enough to resonate throughout a mattress if im laying down. A swelling tension rises and builds in my stomach. A familiar but much lighter feeling arises in my loins as well. It keeps me from being a good person even when I want to be, it’s hard to ignore such a stressed physical response.

Yesterday was Grand

We can’t have sex because she’s on that monthly. But I’m getting sucked like a king.

It really is grand. I remember when she used to be so timid around my cock, feeling forced into blowing me to keep me satisfied and to keep me hers. But now she takes pleasure from it and she does it ravenously sloppily, gagging herself with me and letting me thrust hard agains the back of her throat, she hasn’t quite gotten to a point where she knows how to take me all the way in but she’s a trooper for trying anyway. I gag when i take a tooth brush anywhere paste the middle of my tongue but anyway, to the narrative at hand. Not that whoever reads this will care but this one will be a lot more convoluted and journally than erotic novelly I think.

10/29/2012

We didn’t spend the morning together as we usually would have since she was off of work that day, I had a videogame testing gig and was out of the house by about 10. I showered walked our puppy, left and was gone for about 3 hours, and after that i hardly had time to make a lunch before work for another 3 hours.

When I got back home she was happy to see me and happy to pour her affection out to me, we hung out, played with the pup and talked for a while before my new Xbox started calling my name. I picked up Mass Effect 2 and started playing, she laid on my lap and kept looking at me with that oh so familiar look in her eyes. She wanted me and kept teasing her self in a way,

asking me silly questions about why i was being so seductive, when i was obviously just trying to make my character.

Leaning closer to kiss me for a short while only to have me pull back and get back to my game. Then being disgruntled when I didn’t want to lay down and make out with her until i coaxed an orgasm from her lips.

(which isn’t possible)

I continued to build my character when she confessed, that she was indeed very horny, which went with out saying, and that she just wanted my cock.

“Oh, in that case…” I said as I pulled out my black mamba.

I told her not to be upset that I was going to continue to play my game to whichshe retorted,

“If you can even focus on it.”

I watched her grab hold of my cock with her lips and felt her slide down on to it as deep as she could. I asked her if she liked how it taste. She replied positively and I went back to my game, feeling her suck on me like my semen was all she would allow herself to eat.

I felt her warm saliva dribble out from her mouth and down my shaft, looking away from the screen every once in a while to see the tendrils oozing from her pouty lips.

She was right,

I got distracted.

I put down the controller

grabbed her hair.

I started pumping her face

the wet clacking sound slightly covered by the in game music.

I came after a while, got up to clean up and both of us satisfied I went back to my game.

The thing is, there was never any release for her. 

And she was just as horny as she had been not 20 minutes later and 20 minutes later I was rigging her arms in a claw tie. She looked gorgeous in it as she always does and she asked me to take picture, we then had a photo shoot for probably 5-10 minutes, myself working with my limited lighting and different angles, and her posing for me the best she could with both of her arms bound. After i was done taking pictures, I took a seat, and she blew my cock again. Although she usually takes breaks to give her jaw a rest and jack me off tonight she couldn’t do so with her hands and arms bound. again i fucked her face, but this time she swallowed it for me, all the while I encouraged her, letting her know she was doing a good job, letting her know that she was being such a good girl.

She isn’t really a fan of swallowing but she did it for me anyway sending me into pleasure ridden convulsions, but that wasn’t it for the night.

about an hour later, some dialogue got her into blowing me again. she didn’t finish, I couldn’t have cared less. My cock still feels amazing and I feel like tonight could be similar. I swear the way she treats my cock makes me look forward to her monthly cycle.

She used to be really shy about blowing me

Mostly because she had been assaulted before and it just brought her back to that time. But now I get texts about how she can’t wait to blow me. Tonight I get to bind her and fuck her face.

 Moral of the story is patience is a virtue and love conquers all.

cocks whores cocks whores cocks whores

thats my entire dash

Its disgusting but i revel in it.

Gives me ideas to incorporate in my real life.

anyway my gf has been really enjoying the bondage and what not.

need more rope.

I think I want to sit her in front of the chair in our room tie her fingers to her shoulders and watch her blow me.

Gives me goosebumps just thinking about it.

I’ll post pics yea?